One year ago this evening I gave my mother a hug for the last time. Or rather, she gave me a hug for the last time. I’ve already told the story of that night. Twice. But here it is. December 14. The last evening we spent together.
Her body was so full of life it still seems impossible that she could have died so suddenly like that. I look at her picture and it doesn’t seem real that she’s not here anymore. I am almost certain that the only person who is more shocked than me, my dad or my brother is my mother herself. I am out of words to try and describe how horrible it feels to lose someone you love. Death has always felt so conceptual to me, until this past year. I’ve known people that have died but I have never felt anything even close to what I feel now. Like I suddenly woke up in a life that wasn’t mine anymore. Like the proverbial rug was snatched out from under my feet and I’m still lying on the ground trying to figure out what happened.
Your words describe exactly how I feel. You have endured twelve months of grief and horrible shock from the sudden, unexpected death of your mother.
I have thought of you numerous times this week. Just yesterday I came across an article written on the Spirit World. It provided me with insight and understanding about our post-mortal life. I would love to share it with you.
Please know that I am praying for you, hoping that you will feel a great measure of peace and hope during this challenging week. May the memories of your precious mother warm your heart and give you strength to carry on.
With love,
Christine
Comment by Christine — December 15, 2009 @ 8:51 pm
Sad times. Cannot imagine. My love to you and your family this holiday season.
Comment by Moriah — December 16, 2009 @ 9:38 pm